I’m a little disappointed that I’ve not done as well as I would have liked with the rolling reflections log over the past year. I would like to restart doing those in 2022. I’ll probably add it as a goal. It’s a good way to jot down thoughts on reading and improve my overall reading quality. It’s challenging knowing that writing is what I need to do for my own learning and reflection. How powerful it is for thinking, but then making the dumb statement in my head that I don’t have time. I’ve always struggled with balancing reading with writing. I think reading is hugely important. I think it’s sexier because I can obtain different perspectives and I’m acknowledge the seduction of acquiring more knowledge. Unfortunately, it just becomes mental masturbation if I’m not spending the time to reflect and play with these ideas in my head. The synthesis is lacking and thus so is my growth.
Training: I still continue to struggle with the lack of lifting in the base building phase. I’m currently in week 5 of the base building phase and am excited that on Thursday I’ll be out of the endurance phase and get to lift something for once. I’ve struggled a little getting in the Friday run and have added it on to a monster day on Sunday. It all works out, but it just adds on a little stress. The multiple sets of 50 reps this week went better than I thought. I’ve been taking the day completely off on Wednesday and I’m primed up to go on Thursday, but I don’t really like taking that day off of BJJ. It’s hard finding the balance that I want and I need to find something that’s a little more consistent with what I want to do.
BJJ: Got in 5 training sessions this week. This is where I want to be at a minimum for the foreseeable future. I’ve liked training at multiple gyms, but am struggling with missing out on my Wednesday training day and I’m uncertain how I want to use this time going forward. I’m considering training Tuesday night or Friday night to make up for it.
Sleep: Much better this week. Back up to 6:25 time asleep and about 7:20 time in bed. I typically like to be in bed for at least 7:30 and feel ready to go at that point.
Stress: Still high. Struggling with the social obligations. Finding acceptance that there’s going to be obligations every weekend for the foreseeable future is hard. We’re having a kid in Feb and I think we’ll be doing something every weekend until then. I need to restructure my thinking to find ways to be more efficient and productive in the time that I have.
Learning: Working through multiple courses. Have done a good job so far getting these in on every day off and being consistent. I’m proud of this fact and it’s go for my mind to keep up these routines.
Seeking Progress 