Past week ended mixed. I pretty much told my partners I would not be returning after an upcoming mobilization. I was dealing a lot with disappointment and resentment. I know I need to make a change for not only professional growth, passion and to provide the care that I want to, but most importantly to have a better balance of being with family. I need to stop working 80 hour weeks. I feel as the clinical time has increased I’ve decreased my professional development and reading, which is an issue. It’s part of the reason, I haven’t been writing as much as I want to. I’m hopeful that this will lead to positive change.
Training: Week 12 of Average to Savage 1.0. Squat was 490×5, Bench was 325×3, OHP was 195×5 and deadlifts was the deload 475x3x5. I feel like my strength always gets better on this program and I continue to feel like I need to be more disciplined with my runs. I just have to go to the gym for 30 mins prior to BJJ on these days and make this a habit. I’m going to complete this program and likely recycle it for another 12-16 weeks just because I don’t have an alternative plan.
Running: just got in 3, 20 min runs this past week. They all felt fine, but I noticed that they didn’t feel as easy because of the inconsistency.
BJJ: Wife was on nights and only got in 2 sessions this week which didn’t feel overly solid. This week will likely be a lot with the holiday.
Diet: I don’t know if it’s stress or what but I feel like total calories are down because I have no appetite in the morning. I cut out caffeine and alcohol for the month and feel like it’s made me have more consistent energy throughout the day. Will likely reintroduce caffeine after thanksgiving, but want to limit to like 1 cup of coffee in the morning.
Sleep:
took another hit last week with total time asleep only being 5:34. This is all due to stress. Rarely do I have issues falling asleep, but this past week I was just ruminating in bed.
Stress:
Up. HRV was down to 106ms which is low for me. Resting HR was 44 which is way up from baseline of 40. This is an adequate reflection of stress and sleep depravation.
Learning:
It feels good to be done with the ABOM exam. I’ve been reading more functional medicine work, but know I need to use a notebook when I work through the book as it’s a lot of biochemistry.
Seeking Progress 