My goal for this year was to be more consistent with my writing and I’ve failed that to date. It would be easy to make the excuse of having our kid. I just think it’s because I’ve not been as consistent with my reading and staying on track. As a result I don’t have as much “new” information to process. I think this is why I always liked being a formal education process. You’re given assignment dates and you have to focus on getting a task accomplished. The challenge of my current work environment is there are less and less of these tasks laid out for us. It’s on us to develop the plan or curriculum to follow. I actually had a nice weekend and it was nice getting a little bit more time to think. I like thinking about the future and what I hope I get the opportunity to do. What’s been odd over the past couple years, is even as I’ve worked, I don’t feel like I’m in my final state of being. I feel like the job I have now is temporary and not the terminal portion of my career. I talked with my uncle about this and in other industries they continue to climb as they age in their profession. In my role as a clinician once you’re in practice it can be easy to get stagnant as you feel you’ve reached the top of the pay scale. For better or worse I just feel like I don’t know enough and I could be providing better care. This may all stem from not knowing the answer and a general sense of fear that if I provide faulty care it could have consequences on someone’s quality of life.
Training:
Lifting has been going well. Completed week 3 of the average to savage program and it’s been a really nice change. I think 3x a week with lifting is the better option. I would like to implement this program in my training on an annual basis. Bench I did 265×8, 245×8, 225×17. Deads 465x5x1, 465x3x3. OHP 155×8, 145×8, 135×20. Squat was 390×8, 365×8, 340×19. I feel like my training endurance is down from the last time I ran this cycle.
Running:
Last week on the long day felt great from a cardio perspective and then probably ran more than I should have and strained my calf. It’s frustrating as I’m about a month out from the ACFT and I’ll need to do some cross training to allow it to heal while trying to increase my endurance.
BJJ: 3x this past week. Least I’ve trained in a while. Went to the Chris Stapleton concert and stayed out way too late and was dead for work the next day. Didn’t want to drop sleep more to train. Generally feel stagnant. Getting the training in, but most of the sessions have felt like poor quality over the past couple months.
Sleep:
Felt worse than the numbers reported. Time asleep was 6:34 with time in bed of 7:19.
Stress:
Up and down. Early in the week I hit a low point and was just struggling through. Got better end of the week into the weekend. Starting to hit some deadlines and not looking forward to dealing with them.
Learning:
Very poor as of late. Got a lot of reading in this weekend – about face, lifestyle medicine board review, did training for Regenexx. Just feel lost in the learning process right now.
Seeking Progress 